Regret has increasingly become an overarching theme in my life in the last few years. I've found myself wishing I could go back to when the grass seemed greener--I've found myself wishing I could change parts of who I am or what I've done. And then I instantly I think of where I am now and how, eventhough I'm not fully happy or satisfied with where I am, I wouldn't change any of it.
I had a conversation with my sister last night. We were talking about how we wish we could go back and tell our younger selves what to avoid and what to make sure to do, and what we would change about our lives. And then in the middle of saying all of that, I thought,
"But I don't want to change any of my experiences."
All of those experiences are what make us who we are today. Yes I wish I had written more of it down, but when it comes right down to it, I know I have pictures documenting it all.
Do you ever think that Marty McFly regretted going back and changing his past? Do you ever think that after that whirlwind 3 weeks where he travels all over (because let's face it, all three movies do take place over 3 weeks happening in about a 48 hour timeline for Marty).. do you think the next week when he's at school, he thinks, "Man I really miss how my sister and brother and I were closer before I changed time..." or do you ever think he tries to reminisce with a family member and they don't have any idea what he's talking about because they never experienced that? these are things I think about
Our experiences, good and bad, make us who we are. There are tons of memes all over Pinterest that remind us of that. Like this one and this.
And what made me stop? Why did I not continue writing, honing my writing skills, expanding my vocabulary? My guess is that it became so much easier to express my daily observations and thoughts on Twitter and Facebook. That has become the blog of today, well almost yesterday, we are, as a culture, I think getting a little bored with both.
I enjoy Facebook. I enjoy Twitter. But there really is nothing like writing long posts that can only come as my mind develops these thoughts.
So where does that leave us. With regret? No. With hope. I hope I can keep this up again. I hope that I can continue to tell you something about me. About what I think. I hope you can agree or disagree with me on issues I bring up and discussion happens. I hope we can celebrate great new things together.
So here it is. A new beginning. I am blogging again world!!! My thoughts are now out there again.
And I hope they make you smile.
